Over the last three months I’ve been living a great lesson of authenticity. And once again I’m reminded that the master teacher is always the master student. The Universe is always generous in the giving of opportunities that test our acquired skill of self-actualization. And once we become aware of the learning, we’re immediately provided with an opportunity to teach the lesson to others in effort to make this world a better place. Imagine the potential evolution of humanity if we all took heed and applied the lessons of others to our own lives.
Over the past three months I’ve experienced a sort of “writers block”. And like most writers, I became frustrated with my inability to generate ideas, stay focused and see my chicken scratch as blog worthy — let alone book worthy. I frequently felt like a Champaign bottle that desperately wants to become uncorked and free to spread joy. Yet, my writers block continued…and the pressure multiplied.
Then the Universe did what the Universe does… One by one people began entering my life asking questions, offering different perspectives and challenging my ego. For the first 89 days I became an expert at responding with, “Yes, but…”. My ego managed to turn every offered opportunity to become free and uncorked into an opportunity to remain stuck, stagnant and contained. I kept moving forward allowing the pressure, frustration and disappointment in myself to build. My response to myself simply being, “Ah, this must be how things are supposed to be right now. Maybe it’s just not time for things to happen for me.”
Then one day I was offered a mirror. A gracious friend said, “Here’s what I see…. You’re doing this, but every bit of who you are is this…” Then I looked in that mirror and said, “You’re exactly right. And I’m not living my authentic self because of fear.” Thinking to myself, maybe it won’t work. Maybe they won’t like me. Maybe who I am isn’t the value the world needs. And then my ego popped in and said, “This stagnant box feels comfy, why would I ever want to leave?”
For a moment I wrestled with the woman I am the woman I want to be. For a moment I saw these women as two separate identities–one who was me and one who lived free. And then all of a sudden it hit me… While looking in the mirror and reflecting on my fears I realized that no fear is worth blowing out the light that burns inside me. In that moment I made a decision to own my worthiness and become one identity–my authentic self.
I’ve now made a declaration to myself. No more excuses. No more “what if’s”. What I am I am. I will stand solid and strong in the here and now as a beautiful force of light that will change this world–honoring before all else my authentic self. And just like that I became uncorked. My gift to write again flowed free because I gave myself permission to fearlessly show the world the real me.
The more people who share their story with the world the more people we set free. Who are you? What’s your story of authenticity?
Gina Soleil, is a speaker and acclaimed author of Fuel Your Business: How to energize people, ignite action and drive profit. She blogs and speaks about how to create a business where people are energized, feel good and are happy. Visit Gina Soleil and follow her on Twitter.